1000 CRANESSSSSSS

I'm making a 1000 cranes. It's a Japanese legend that anyone who makes a 1000 cranes gets a wish and we started this thing in school to make cranes and sell them to raise money for Japan. I decided to make my own 1000 cranes because I thought the wish thing would only work if one person makes all of them and I wanted to make a wish for Japan and then I was gonna give my cranes away to be sold.

But I'm so selfish -__- 1. I changed my wish to something selfish and stupid and 2. My cranes are getting sloppier and sloppier and I don't think anyone would buy them lol.

Anyway, so Vaman (and Andrew and Matt) thought I'd never be able to make a 1000 cranes so I bet them I could do it by Monday. This. Monday. I only have 900 more to go -__- Vaman bet me coldstone ice cream. Mark bet me 20 bucks. Justin bet me 5 bucks. Joe bet me 10 bucks. Akwasi bet me 15 bucks.

I'm gonna be sooo rich on Monday :)

Also, I'm using my crane making time to contemplate whether I should make my wish about Japan or the other thing. I'm so selfish. -___________- I hope I decide to make my wish about Japan. I want to be a good person :(

o;wugajj; YAY

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i so happy.

for no reason really. like the reason isn't really a good reason to be THIS happy.

but at least i'm not upset anymore.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

ok i'm gonna go back to what i said before. "i'm not naive. i know everything."

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

im dumb.

i'm so stupid and naive. wow. wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

like, all these days when people said i'm naive and innocent and stuff, i just brushed it off cuz i knew they were wrong, and i know everything. no. i don't. i'm stupid.

procrastinate: 50 questions

[ZERO] Your ex texted you and wanted you back, would you take them back?
— uh no. he lives in like georgia.

[ONE] Has anyone told you “Forever and ever” then left?
— no lol

[TWO] Your relationship status?
— single

[THREE] Where did you meet your crush(s)?
— at school i guess. but i don't really have a crush on anyone -__- people in my school are too dumb

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
— nope

[FIVE] Do you smoke weed regularly?
— nope

[SIX] Think back to the beginning of 2011, are you still dating the same person?
— i wasn't dating anyone lol

[SEVEN] Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
— Yup.

[EIGHT] When was the last time you really laughed?
— Friday?

[NINE] Something’s wrong, first guy you turn too?
— I don't have any close guy friends.

[TEN] First girl you’d go too?
— Tyusha. Then Shalom if I feel like it's important enough.

[ELEVEN] Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did?
— Well in 8th grade we were all chilling in Math League and I was hungry so I ate Rachel's chocolate pudding. She got pretty mad and I don't think she likes me much.

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
— No. Sorta. I don't really care.

[THIRTEEN] What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
— I DON'T LIKE HIM!

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried really hard?
— Yesterday. I cry all the time nowadays -__- and I've become overly sentimental.

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
— My sister. But I would only do big things for her. Not little things like play with her or get her a glass of water. I'm too lazy for that stuff. :D

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 mins on the phone?
— I dunno. Probably Shalom. I don't talk to people on the phone. Or text people. I don't talk to ANYONE!

[EIGHTEEN] What is your favorite song?
— No favorites, just current obsessions:

Mia - IU (actually pretty much everything by IU)
Nu Abo - f(x)
Tonight - Big Bang
Can't Say I Love You - 2AM
Sheila Ki Jawani - Tees Maar Khan
Dheera Dheera Dheera - Magadheera
Manasantha Chala - Bujjgadu

[NINETEEN] Do you like Red Bull?
—- I've never had it.

[TWENTY] How many people can you tell just about everything to?
— One.

[TWENTY-ONE] Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
— Yea. When I was little I wasted ALL of my first-star-of-the-night wishes and shooting star wishes on "I wish I can be Sailor Moon." T________T What was wrong with me?

[TWENTY-TWO] Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
— Uhhhh the last person I held hands with was...... I dunno.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Describe yourself in one word?
— Stupid.

[TWENTY-FIVE] Do you have anything that belongs to your ex?
— No.

[TWENTY SIX] Can you honestly say you’ve had a sleepover with the opposite gender?
— Yupp Chandu and I used to sleep over 5895320 times when we were little kids.

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Do you rebound?
— What does that even mean? You mean like if someone throws me against a wall, will I bounce back? Probably not.

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Ever cheated on someone?
— No

[TWENTY-NINE] What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?
— Be like "NOOOOOOOOOOO!" really loudly at the lunch table, because that's probably where I'd find out. And then laugh. Because, as I've said, I don't like him T_T

[THIRTY] Do you act differently around the person you like?
— No. I would. But I don't like him. WHY DO YOU JUST ASSUME!?

[THIRTY-ONE] Honestly, what guy’s number do you have memorized?
— No one's. LOL

[THIRTY-TWO] Is it hard to make you laugh?
— Nope. I laugh at everything. Pudding. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you mad?
— Terrell. Poop.

[THIRTY-FOUR] Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
— No.

[THIRTY-FIVE] Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
— No.

[THIRTY-SIX] Has anyone ever called you “scrumptious” before?
— What.... the... hell?

[THIRTY-SEVEN] Would you like to put a night on repeat, and live it forever?
— Which night? Tonight? No. Tonight sucks. But yea there's probably some night in my past that I could put on repeat. Psych jk. I don't wanna repeat anything. Newwwwwww experiences!

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
— Pretty much.

[THIRTY-NINE] Is your best friend a slut?
— No lol.

[FORTY] Is hard drugs a turn off?
— Definitely.

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with life right now?
— No. T______________T

[FORTY-THREE] Are you still in love with your ex??
— No.

[FORTY-FOUR] Have you ever been the “other person” in a relationship?
— No. That I know of. LOLLLLLLLLL

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?
— No, just disappointed.

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
— Not that I know of.

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in?
— No. Well, myself I guess.

[FORTY-EIGHT] Where is your best friend?
— In her house.

[FORTY-NINE] Something your happy about?
— YAYYYYYYY! ONLY LIKE 2 AND HALF MONTHS TILL SCHOOL'S OUT!

[FIFTY] How is your heart lately?
— Pretty good. I'm still young so all the junk food hasn't had a chance to catch up to me yet. Oh you meant, how is it emotionally? WHY DO U KEEP INTRUDING ON MY STUFFS!?

That was such a waste of time T_________T

heart motives

I only listened to one of the heart motives seminars! BAHHHHHHHHHHHH

I've been meaning to listen to them forever but I don't wanna listen until I get completely caught up and I'm in a state of peace and non-worryness. I WILL finish all my work today no matter what it takes or how long I have to stay up and then I'll treat myself to listening to heart motives all day tomorrow when I get home from school. :D

My aunt got me my special hula hoop. YAY!

No more junk food. I will kill Joe and feed all his candy to pigeons if I have to. And I'm broke anyway so I can't buy candy from him anyway. :D

Buttttt..... there's other stuff I need/want to buy. But I don't have money. And if I did have money, I refuse to buy it until I lose weight which I'll feel guilty about spending time on until my grades are up which I can't do if I don't finish my homework. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! END OF MARKING PERIOD IS THIS WEEK!

I need a job for the summer.

hajima hajima mamamamamamama

I don't really pay attention to any of the new girl groups that are coming out. But this new song by Girl's Day is so catchy. I like it. Sorta. It's catchy tho.

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LOL! Ok so there's kid in my physics class who isn't gay but we tease him for being gay But we don't tease him in a mean way, so it's funny. And he really doesn't help his case. At all. HAHAHA!

(this kid Pierce walks into class and he's pretty buff i guess and he was wearing a semi-tight shirt)

Aaron: Whoa Pierce. You're looking BIG in that shirt!

LOLOLOLOL. I laughed.

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I need to buckle down. Forrealz. I have so much I need to do but I just don't do it for some reason. And if I don't do the things I need to do, then I can never do things I want to do. Omg.... T___T I need summer. Not spring break, because then I'll have to study for AP exams. I need summer. So bad.

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My mom thinks I'm depressed or "have a complex" or something. She asked me if I need therapy. T________________________T

I'm seriously considering it. But I'm not gonna tell her about it if I decide to do it. I'll ask my dad about it.

EDIT: I totally lied. I refuse to do it. Everything I'm gonna say to the shrink is gonna sound retardeddddddddddd. My problems are so TINY compared to other people's. I need to stop exaggerating my face off.

my life is OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

my life is freaking falling apart. nothing is happening the way i want it to. this is probably karma for something stupid i did.

i.

hate.

everything.

I have realized

I've pretty much ruined my life. I have no future.

I'm just gonna sit here and finish these sour patch kids and then eat everything else in the house. I don't care about getting fat anymore. Once I become a hobo, I'll lose all the weight anyway.