Day 1 - Love

First of all, I just wanna say that I got a haircut. My hair feels sooo short now, even though some people would still consider it long. Maybe medium length. Anddd today I drew. I actually took a pencil and drew a person on a sheet of paper and took time to try to make him look nice. I drew a shirtless guy with a bow and arrows. I feel accomplished :D I HUNG IT UP ON MY REFRIGERATOR! :DDDD

Anyway, here goessss:

So I already wrote about some of this in that one post about Taeyang lol. But yea, I really do think all that.

And about friendly love....I dunno. I don't think it's as complicated. You love your friends or you don't. I love all my friends, buttt.... I don't think I've ever actually said "I love you" to someone. Except for....what's-his-face but I'll save that for Day 29. But I've never really told my friends I loved them or any of my family. And I have never told my parents I love them. Not once. But that doesn't mean I don't. I do, butttttt I just don't like...to...say it. I don't really like talking about my feelings. Like I talk about my superficial feelings to my friends or whoever but honestly, those things don't really matter to me. I've never talked about my fears, or hopes, or dreams, or insecurities with anyone.

Ok, I went off topic. Buttt you know, that could be a test or something in the future. Like I'll know if somebody's "the one" if I'm able to talk about those things with them. Or maybe not. I don't really want anyone to know about those things.

I don't know how anyone ever gets to the point where they decide they want to marry someone. It's like.... I don't know. I don't think I'm even qualified to be ranting about this topic since I'm so not experienced in it. I really don't know anything about it.

I love my sister. She's the one person in this world that I would probably give up anything or do anything for. Except I refuse to do things that involve me getting up and doing something. Like getting her a glass of water. BUT, I would do stuffs for her.

LOVE IS: when someone genuinely wishes for the well-being of another person. That's it. You might think it's too simple a definition, but I don't think it is. Because honestly, you can wish for the well-being of a lot of people and you can wish for people to be successful, but I think most people and definitely me included are always hindered from being good people because of this thing called ENVY (more on Day 23). So when nothing can stop you from wanting the best for someone else, even if it's at the cost of your own happiness, that's love.

I don't know if I can ever get to that level with anyone. lakfafbafhjakf. I'm never getting married. akfhakfhawfhua.KA:JDHAKLAHDLASD